I'm such a big baby sometimes. I have been a crying mess for about an hour yesterday, and all just because I had to cancel my prenatal massage appointment {for the second time due to money being tight }
It's probably not a big deal to anyone, but to a pregnant hormonal women its a huge deal lol. Hubby has been really understanding and gave me a back & foot massage last night. I think the reason why I was so upset about this situation is, that I don't ever take time just for myself! And when i do plan something, there comes always something up anf I have to cancel my plans. I don't do girls nights { not into it} and when I decide to take a relaxing bath , my youngest tries to join me, or my oldest HAS to tell me about her day.
I am always someone's mommy or someone's wife wish I LOVE dont get me wrong but I sometimes I wish I had an hour just to myself. I guess that's my vent for this week lol I am off to enjoy some more time with my inlaw's <3
Saturday, April 7, 2012
Wednesday, April 4, 2012
MAJOR Vent
OK i have to Vent BIG TIMES right now..... Before Hubby and i even found out we are pregnant, we decided to keep Babys Sex a Secret. Once we had the BFP we told family & Friends about our plan not to reveal the sex until baby is born. Everyone was really supportive and all BUT my Family { well more like my Mother } this morning we skyped and the first thing out of her mouth was " is the baby ok" {no hi schatzi how are you & the kids....} i told her yes baby is OK, baby weighs 1 pound even and has no Spina bifida and no markers for DS... she then asked " did you find out the sex? I told her YESSSS with a big smile on my face... and she goes " well what is it...." i told her " you KNOW T & i are not going to reveal the sex....." she goes "but i am the grandma i DESERVE to know, i cant wait until august, you are so friggin MEAN, how can you do this to me" bla bla bla...
OK first of, i didnt know that you DESERVE to know the sex of MY baby JUST because you are the Grandma..... SECOND, i dont have to tell anyone ANYTHING. You are not the one carrying this baby, nor did you put it there so you have NO say in it.... COME ON GIVE ME A DAMN BREAK..... i was SO pissed but treid to stay calm.
THEN she said " well you know we thought about printing out the ultrasound pics you have and take them to Dr.K and have him tell us the sex of the baby ........... OH BOY i swear i was SO close to losing it, the only reason why i didnt blow up was because my children were with me. HOW DARE YOU DISRESPECT OUR WISHES LIKE THAT, WHO THE EFF DO YOU THINK YOU ARE???????? I am seriously at a loss, how can ANYONE just THINK about doing something hurtful like that??????? CANT YOU JUST WAIT UNTIL BABY IS BORN
OK first of, i didnt know that you DESERVE to know the sex of MY baby JUST because you are the Grandma..... SECOND, i dont have to tell anyone ANYTHING. You are not the one carrying this baby, nor did you put it there so you have NO say in it.... COME ON GIVE ME A DAMN BREAK..... i was SO pissed but treid to stay calm.
THEN she said " well you know we thought about printing out the ultrasound pics you have and take them to Dr.K and have him tell us the sex of the baby ........... OH BOY i swear i was SO close to losing it, the only reason why i didnt blow up was because my children were with me. HOW DARE YOU DISRESPECT OUR WISHES LIKE THAT, WHO THE EFF DO YOU THINK YOU ARE???????? I am seriously at a loss, how can ANYONE just THINK about doing something hurtful like that??????? CANT YOU JUST WAIT UNTIL BABY IS BORN
Monday, April 2, 2012
Anatomy scan
I am 21w0d as of today, and just got back from my Anatomy scan!.
Baby looks good no anencephaly or spina bifida and no markers for Down syndrom, the little one weighst ONE POUND already!!!!!. We got a few pictures of baby which i will upload later :) .....Everything seemed fine BUT there is ONE concern... the babys placenta... or should i say placentaS because apparently i have TWO of them..... it looks like my placenta is SPLIT in half but connected with abnormal blood vessels..... That means i am back to Being High Risk, i will have ultrasounds every 4 weeks, and baby will be delivered AT LEAST 3 weeks before my actual due date...... Pelvic rest for the rest of the pregnancy, and i could end up being put on Bed rest ( at home or the hospital) if the abnormal growth of the placenta continues....I am beyond crushed at this moment..... i just pray my little miracle stays strong :(
The second concern is that i am A FULL placenta previa {placenta/s cover my cervix completely} ALSO the placenta has attached itself to my old C-section scars. Thats also a big concern, it could cause heavy bleeding during the C-section, which will end up in me having a hysterectomy. I am at a complete loss at the moment and dont know what to do/think. I can't even Talk about it without crying. I DONT care if i lose my uterus during the C-section as long as baby is going to be OK and developes healthy....
Baby looks good no anencephaly or spina bifida and no markers for Down syndrom, the little one weighst ONE POUND already!!!!!. We got a few pictures of baby which i will upload later :) .....Everything seemed fine BUT there is ONE concern... the babys placenta... or should i say placentaS because apparently i have TWO of them..... it looks like my placenta is SPLIT in half but connected with abnormal blood vessels..... That means i am back to Being High Risk, i will have ultrasounds every 4 weeks, and baby will be delivered AT LEAST 3 weeks before my actual due date...... Pelvic rest for the rest of the pregnancy, and i could end up being put on Bed rest ( at home or the hospital) if the abnormal growth of the placenta continues....I am beyond crushed at this moment..... i just pray my little miracle stays strong :(
The second concern is that i am A FULL placenta previa {placenta/s cover my cervix completely} ALSO the placenta has attached itself to my old C-section scars. Thats also a big concern, it could cause heavy bleeding during the C-section, which will end up in me having a hysterectomy. I am at a complete loss at the moment and dont know what to do/think. I can't even Talk about it without crying. I DONT care if i lose my uterus during the C-section as long as baby is going to be OK and developes healthy....
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