MAJOR Vent

OK i have to Vent BIG TIMES right now..... Before Hubby and i even found out we are pregnant, we decided to keep Babys Sex a Secret. Once we had the BFP we told family & Friends about our plan not to reveal the sex until baby is born. Everyone was really supportive and all BUT my Family { well more like my Mother } this morning we skyped and the first thing out of her mouth was " is the baby ok"  {no hi schatzi how are you & the kids....} i told her yes baby is OK, baby weighs 1 pound even and has no Spina bifida and no markers for DS... she then asked " did you find out the sex? I told her YESSSS with a big smile on my face... and she goes " well what is it...." i told her " you KNOW T & i are not going to reveal the sex....." she goes "but i am the grandma i DESERVE to know, i cant wait until august, you are so friggin MEAN, how can you do this to me" bla bla bla...
 OK first of, i didnt know that you DESERVE to know the sex of MY baby JUST because you are the Grandma..... SECOND, i dont have to tell anyone ANYTHING. You are not the one carrying this baby, nor did you put it there so you have NO say in it.... COME ON GIVE ME A DAMN BREAK..... i was SO pissed but treid to stay calm.
THEN she said " well you know we thought about printing out the ultrasound pics you have and take them to Dr.K and have him tell us the sex of the baby ........... OH BOY i swear i was SO close to losing it, the only reason why i didnt blow up was because my children were with me. HOW DARE YOU DISRESPECT OUR WISHES LIKE THAT, WHO THE EFF DO YOU THINK YOU ARE???????? I am seriously at a loss, how can ANYONE just THINK about doing something hurtful like that??????? CANT YOU JUST WAIT UNTIL BABY IS BORN

Anatomy scan

I am 21w0d as of today, and just got back from my Anatomy scan!.
Baby looks good no anencephaly or spina bifida and no markers for Down syndrom, the little one weighst ONE POUND already!!!!!. We got a few pictures of baby which i will upload later :) .....Everything seemed fine BUT there is ONE concern... the babys placenta... or should i say placentaS because apparently i have TWO of them..... it looks like my placenta is SPLIT in half but connected with abnormal blood vessels..... That means i am back to Being High Risk, i will  have ultrasounds every 4 weeks, and baby will be delivered AT LEAST 3 weeks before my actual due date......  Pelvic rest for the rest of the pregnancy, and i could end up being put on Bed rest ( at home or the hospital) if the abnormal growth of the placenta continues....I am beyond crushed at this moment..... i just pray my little miracle stays strong :(
The second concern is that i am A FULL placenta previa {placenta/s cover my cervix completely} ALSO the placenta has attached itself to my old C-section scars. Thats also a big concern, it could cause heavy bleeding during the C-section, which will end up in me having a hysterectomy. I am at a complete loss at the moment and dont know what to do/think. I can't even Talk about it without crying. I DONT care if i lose my uterus during the C-section as long as baby is going to be OK and developes healthy....

20w1d

Today marks the halfway point {well actually yesterday marked the halfway point but who cares}
Today i had the meeting with the Genetic councelor, to discuss what Genetic testing we will do in the next couple of weeks. We went over our Family History, and then talked about the options we have!.
We decided to just stick with the High resolution Ultrasound.
WHY you ask.... its pretty simple. We have three option, Ultrasound, Bloodwork and  Amniocentesis.

Ultrasound: Its NONE invasive, does not harm the baby, is 97%  accurate {for anencephaly, spina bifida etc} PLUS we get to see Sticky bean <3

Amniocenteses is a NO GO, because There is a risk that an amniocentesis could cause a miscarriage. We are NOT Willing to take the chance of losing our baby. PLUS it is "only" 98% accurate.... WHY would i put my Baby at risk for that ONE percent { compared to the Ultrasound}

Blood testing..... this is a tricky one... basically they draw blood check my levels and give me a STATISTIC POSSIBILITY that something MIGHT be wrong.... Meaning, i COULD have an elevated blood level for some genetic defect BUT the baby is perfectly Healty... I do NOT wanna be stressed out the rest of this pregnancy, wondering IF or if NOT the baby is healthy....

The lady was REALLY nice, and respected our wishes to only do the Ultrasound as genetic screening, she even agreed with us in our desicion. My ultrasound is scheduled for April 2nd so in excatly one week from today!. She said she makes sure that a Dr. will see me that day as well, and go over my ultrasound results, she said " she wants to make sure i am leaving the hospital with every question answered "

Well thats it for the Councelling today, i am like i said 20w1d as of today, and baby is getting stronger and stronger :D i uploaded a short video of baby kicking { on FB} and as soon as i find my IPhone cable i will update this post with the 20w Pic and the Video. I had a pretty "significant" weight gain this week EEK lol i am now at 130 which means i gained 5 pounds total! but thats NOT BAD {at all} for being half way there!.
But i definitely need to watch what i eat now, i have been pigging out BIG TIMES ....{but Lord the food over here is so good} Well thats it for now i guess i better get my butt in gear and prepare for tomorrow { We will get our washer and dryer delivered PLUS we get the last things from germany delivered YAY}



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