103 days to go

today i went on "i am pregnant" to get my weekly update on Baby and it says:

There are 110 days until your due date on August 13, 2012.
You are 170 days pregnant.
You are 5.6 months pregnant.
You are in your 6th month of pregnancy.
Your 1st trimester: November 07, 2011 to February 05, 2012. (0 - 12 weeks)
Your 2nd trimester: February 06, 2012 to May 20, 2012. (13 - 27 weeks)
Your 3rd trimester: May 21, 2012 to August 13, 2012. (28 - 40 weeks)

Then it hit me that i might only have anything between  89-103 days left depending on the results of our next ultrasounds. Baby is VERY active & i cherish each and every kick and roll baby does in my tummy, we have come along way and i honestly didnt expect sticky bean to stay with us for that long. This week also marks a BIG milestone, by the end of this week, baby has a good chance of survivig { with A LOT of help of course} should baby be born soon. I know, i know i probably should think about it this way, and i sure as hell hope baby will NOT be born before week 37 but it gives me somewat a piece of mind.

Like i said Baby is active A LOT especially when Daddy talks to him/her

Every Night, hubby says good night to baby and i guess there is something about his voice that makes baby tumble and kick like crazy <3

My belly is SUPER LOW, but my uterus / baby are right below my Ribs, i think its because of the placenta previa / bilobed placenta. I <3 my bump.

The Girls are super excited about Baby, they love on my tummy and talk to baby every day.  Bells tells me how she can't wait to hold baby, and change baby's diapers, and hailey tells everyone that mommy has a baby in her tummy. They are such a blessing.

I just realized that this has been the first REAL update {with pics & stuff} in a LONG time. i am sorry ladies, but i have been super busy lately

First visit to the L&D

I woke up this morning and i just felt weird. I had a headache and was super dizzy. I thought it might be because i didnt drink enough water, so i upped my Water intake. My husband came home after PT to take me and the lil one to the Pediatr. for haileys appointment. I still felt "weird" and by the time we got done with hailey's appoitnment i was so dizzy that i could barely sit.
T decided to take me to the ER esp since i had some odd  "braxton hicks" we got to the ER/L&D at 10:30 and i was hooked up to the Togo right away. They did bloodwork and pushed fluids through an IV and did some Swabs. My Heartrate was through the roof, i was shaky and dizzy. We sat at the ER for FOUR hours until my Lab results FINALLY came back, my Iron is super low. its supposed to be in the 40's and mine is only 25 EEKKK. I am on also on antibiotics for an Infection {not a yeast infection but i have more "normal" bacteria then most women so i have to take the Pills twice a day for 2 weeks or so}
They first wanted me to just stick with my Iron pills, but the Doc said that it would be better to give me an IV Iron  Transfusion. I have to have 5 sessions { one session takes 3 hours} ON TOP of taking my Iron.... Why is my Iron level so important??? i am more likely to bleed during my c-section due to the possible accreta. If i dont get my iron level up by the time i am supposed to deliver OR Baby doesnt Tolerate the Transfusion, i have to have a blood transfusion.
its been a long and exhausting day, The highlight was, to see the lil one on the schreen <3
I am off for tonight <3

Off Topic....

OK this is TOTALLY off Topic but i HAVE to bragg lol.
I was really worried about how bells will adjust to the new school etc, but she got her first IPR today
{interim Performance Report} aka Zwischenzeugniss for my German Friends :) and what can i say i have a AB Honor Roll Student on my Hands <3 i am SO proud of her!!!!!!.... Look at this

90-100% is A

80-90% is B

and E stands for "Excellent"

Bells loves her new school and teacher i am SO happy that shes doing so good!. I always knew that bells is a smart cookie but i didnt expect her IPR to be this awesome :D WAY TO GO BELLS!!!!!!

23weeks down MAX 16 weeks to go

Good morning everyone :)
I am 23weeks 0days as of today, its crazy how fast this pregnancy went so far.  Last night i was sitting in the Baby's room {which is ALMOST finished by the way} and i was shocked when i realized that in less then 4 months our little bundle of joy will join our Family. I CAN'T wait. I "finished" my Baby Registry last night. I didnt add any clothes tho, Family /friends can buy {if they want to} any color clothes they like after Baby is born.
I havent gained any weight this week {YAY} but my belly is getting bigger and bigger <3 <3  i LOVE my Bump. But there are things i DONT like about being pregnant. My Pubic bone feels like its being torn apart / pulled apart, my back is killing me & I am super Dizzy ALL.THE.TIME, i m not looking forward to the summer months lol.
I have a WIC appointment this afternoon, i am kinda excited about it { who doesnt like free stuff huh?}
Im wondering how the whole thing works over here { if its any different from being overseas}
Well thats it for now, here is my Belly pic for this week :D

45 minutes of BABY

Hubby treated me to a "miracle Package" at "Now Showing" its a 30 minute ultrasound which includes:

• DVD of Ultrasound, set to music
• Picture CD with 3D Images
• 2 Black & White Photo Prints
• 1 Color Photo Print
• Limited Diagnostic
• Gender Determination (upon request)

It was AMAZING. The Video isnt any good just to let you know. Its 5 short videos of lots of wiggling { on the ultrasound techs side} because baby is stubborn like its daddy and didnt wanna cooperate. S/he had his/her legs in front of his/her face! We tried EVERYTHING to get him/her to move those chubby legs lol. BUT the Tech gave us a few nice pics and i was able to cut out a few extra ones out of the Video!. I hope you like them <3 we sure LOVE the pics.


Here is the Baby

the password is : BabyBierman

OB/Gyn appointment

I just got home from my Second OB/GYN appointment with Dr Rabi and i have to say i REALLY hope he will deliver the baby, we feel pretty comfortable with him, and  always takes time to answers our questions.
The first thing he said was " you know we can scratch the Vaginal Delivery" LOL i just replied " jup kinda figured that". He said that even IF the Placenta previa resolves itself over the last few weeks of the Pregnancy the Accreta will not. We are not 100% positive i HAVE a Placenta Accreta, in fact you cant 100% diagnose an accreta before the placenta is born and sent to the lab. We will have lots of ultrasounds and We will also have an MIR done to get a better look at the Placenta/possible accreta. But he said that T and i have to discuss how we want to proceed, An accreta is putting me at a Really high risk of dying due to bloodloss, so in most cases they do a Hysterectomy to avoid the bloodloss etc.That also means no Baby's anymore. But i am "fine" with that i have two beautiful daughters and i have another little miracle growing inside of me. I do NOT want to risk dying giving birth to StickyBean. He said that IF the Placenta Previa should resolve itself i will have a Scheduled C-section at 39 weeks. If NOT i will deliver at 37 weeks. He said i could be hospitalised a week before surgery just to be able to keep an close eye on me!.
I gained 8 pounds so far, and he was pretty happy with that! I am now at 133 pounds.
I also asked him WHY i only have ultrasounds every 4 weeks, that i was worried i am not watched closely enough. He said it gives the best results because the baby doesnt gain much in 2 weeks but the difference with 4 weeks inbetween will give a much better reading.
He also told me " You know NOTHING goes in "there" not your husband NOTHING" i blushed and said "jup we have been told that at the last ultrasound....". I can't even have Nurses check my cervix, so everytime i go to the ER i have to let them know that due to my condition they cannot check me even IF i had conractions.
Well last but not least, Babys Heartbeat was at 149 <3 This is it for today, Hailey is going down for a nap now, and so will I


XoXo
Jen&StickyBean

22 weeks down

Whoa this is embarrassing to type lol but ill say it anyway

I gained 5 1/2 pounds in the last 4 weeks EEK, while i know its in the normal range of weight gain { and i have only gained 9 pounds up until now) i am worried what my doctors will tell me. The nurse at my last appointment told me to up my Cals, and so i did, well i was more pigging out the last couple weeks, than upping my cals a bit.  i am scared to gain more then nessecsary, i would like to stick closer to 15 pounds. It was SO hard to lose all that baby weight after i had hailey UGH.

Oh well on another note, we bought our First Baby Items YAY. We bought a few onsies at the local thrift store, ten to be exact, baby will be born in July so it is going to be REALLY hot, onsies will be all we need for the first few weeks!. It was hard to find premie stuff so T and i stuck to the newborn / 0-3 months clothes
I am terrified that i wont get the nursery done in time, but i am pretty sure baby wont mind :) i have to take it easy, for baby's sake so the nursery will have to wait.

i am a little bummed out that i wont have a Babyshower for this little one :( but i dont know many ppl around here & his family isnt anywhere close. T suggested an online babyshower, but i dont know, to me it seems like i am begging for baby items?! The thing i like about babyshowers, is getting together and having fun, the presents are just a Plus.  i have a secret baby register, and i will reveal it once Baby is born { due to colors/themes i've chosen on this register} in case friends/family want to buy something

i am still not talking to my side of the Family, and i dont plan on doing so anytime soon. Im still pretty pissed about this whole thing, oh well.
Baby has been super active lately, and is Definitely pushing and deforming my belly :D Strong little sticky bean :D. We like to play a game, I POKE baby, and baby pushes my belly where i poked, its AWESOME  i will try to take a GOOD video of it and post it on here so stay tuned :)


OH and here my belly, if you havent seen it on FB already

Cry me a river

I'm such a big baby sometimes. I have been a crying mess for about an hour yesterday, and all just because I had to cancel my prenatal massage appointment {for the second time due to money being tight }
It's probably not a big deal to anyone, but to a pregnant hormonal women its a huge deal lol. Hubby has been really understanding and gave me a back & foot massage last night. I think the reason why I was so upset about this situation is, that I don't ever take time just for myself! And when i do plan something, there comes always something up anf I have to cancel my plans. I don't do girls nights { not into it} and when I decide to take a relaxing bath , my youngest tries to join me, or my oldest HAS to tell me about her day.
I am always someone's mommy or someone's wife wish I LOVE dont get me wrong but I sometimes I wish I had an hour just to myself. I guess that's my vent for this week lol I am off to enjoy some more time with my inlaw's <3

MAJOR Vent

OK i have to Vent BIG TIMES right now..... Before Hubby and i even found out we are pregnant, we decided to keep Babys Sex a Secret. Once we had the BFP we told family & Friends about our plan not to reveal the sex until baby is born. Everyone was really supportive and all BUT my Family { well more like my Mother } this morning we skyped and the first thing out of her mouth was " is the baby ok"  {no hi schatzi how are you & the kids....} i told her yes baby is OK, baby weighs 1 pound even and has no Spina bifida and no markers for DS... she then asked " did you find out the sex? I told her YESSSS with a big smile on my face... and she goes " well what is it...." i told her " you KNOW T & i are not going to reveal the sex....." she goes "but i am the grandma i DESERVE to know, i cant wait until august, you are so friggin MEAN, how can you do this to me" bla bla bla...
 OK first of, i didnt know that you DESERVE to know the sex of MY baby JUST because you are the Grandma..... SECOND, i dont have to tell anyone ANYTHING. You are not the one carrying this baby, nor did you put it there so you have NO say in it.... COME ON GIVE ME A DAMN BREAK..... i was SO pissed but treid to stay calm.
THEN she said " well you know we thought about printing out the ultrasound pics you have and take them to Dr.K and have him tell us the sex of the baby ........... OH BOY i swear i was SO close to losing it, the only reason why i didnt blow up was because my children were with me. HOW DARE YOU DISRESPECT OUR WISHES LIKE THAT, WHO THE EFF DO YOU THINK YOU ARE???????? I am seriously at a loss, how can ANYONE just THINK about doing something hurtful like that??????? CANT YOU JUST WAIT UNTIL BABY IS BORN

Anatomy scan

I am 21w0d as of today, and just got back from my Anatomy scan!.
Baby looks good no anencephaly or spina bifida and no markers for Down syndrom, the little one weighst ONE POUND already!!!!!. We got a few pictures of baby which i will upload later :) .....Everything seemed fine BUT there is ONE concern... the babys placenta... or should i say placentaS because apparently i have TWO of them..... it looks like my placenta is SPLIT in half but connected with abnormal blood vessels..... That means i am back to Being High Risk, i will  have ultrasounds every 4 weeks, and baby will be delivered AT LEAST 3 weeks before my actual due date......  Pelvic rest for the rest of the pregnancy, and i could end up being put on Bed rest ( at home or the hospital) if the abnormal growth of the placenta continues....I am beyond crushed at this moment..... i just pray my little miracle stays strong :(
The second concern is that i am A FULL placenta previa {placenta/s cover my cervix completely} ALSO the placenta has attached itself to my old C-section scars. Thats also a big concern, it could cause heavy bleeding during the C-section, which will end up in me having a hysterectomy. I am at a complete loss at the moment and dont know what to do/think. I can't even Talk about it without crying. I DONT care if i lose my uterus during the C-section as long as baby is going to be OK and developes healthy....